What it takes
For this week’s article I’m going to tackle some serious issues at hand, and it’s going to take a lot out of me to produce such a level of honesty that haven’t been able to speak out about before. Until recently I opened up to my loved ones.
I often get asked what it took to lose all the weight, but I would also like to tell people what it doesn’t take.
I see girl’s everyday going through what I went through, and it brings tears to my eyes, I literally want to grab them and say “STOP what you are doing”.
Eating disorders, so it’s no secret I grew up being overweight and teased about my appearance which left me with low self-esteem and a very poor body image. I love food and I love cooking, so it made this journey very difficult. On top of this, I am an emotional eater, if I down some food it makes me feel better and it’s like I have no off switch when I go on a binge. I will put some men to shame with the amount of food that I can consume in one sitting.
2012-2013 was probably the worst time of my life I didn’t know what to do. I became severely depressed, I didn’t want to go out, and my friends called it cabin fever. I was crying every day, and when I spoke about myself I was worse than the bullies I grew up with. I would stand in front of the mirror and tell myself how pathetic I was, how fat I was and how ugly I was. I believed every word I said, I thought I was worthless, I settled for guys who treated me like I was nothing to them and I chased that, because I didn’t believe I deserved any better. My mom took me to dieticians who told me that I may benefit from seeing a psychologist. It got really bad before it got better, the mental work that I put into fixing myself was way harder than the weight loss itself.
Soon after my depression, bulimia entered the picture, I would stuff my face and then stick my fingers down my throat until my fingers were raw. I had ruptured blood vessels on my face which I claimed were allergies because they had a rash like appearance. I eventually had to use other objects to make myself throw up. It didn’t stop there, I started using laxatives because in my mind I thought this would result in weight loss.
Guess what? It didn’t, I infact ended up heavier than I had ever been before. So I tell every girl or boy that this is NOT the way to go, all you are doing is making it worse and doing damage to your intestines and physical features.
So in 2014, I decided, you know what I am CHERISE POTGIETER I am not weak, I am just little broken, and what do you do to broken things? you fix them. So I went on a complete rehabilitation, initiated entirely by myself. There will be no more bulimia and no more laxatives.
I will learn, I will work for this and become the girl that I am meant to be. So there was no secret diet pill or magic solution to my transformation. It was filled with hurdle after hurdle, every time I fell, I got right back up.
I read articles every day, about fitness, training and diet. I spent hours in the shops studying nutritional tables; I taught myself that food was not my enemy, my lack of knowledge was.
I eventually became good at memorizing the nutritional contents of certain foods, which made dieting a walk in the park. I grew to love the meals I was creating.
I was so proud and felt so good that I was winning. I was beating the negativity. My self-worth, confidence, and the way that I saw myself changed completely. The girl I used to be was gone, I was a different person.
With this article; I want to inform people that it doesn’t have to be difficult, you don’t have to feel the way that you do. Say NO to eating disorders and unhealthy eating habits. Follow a well-balanced diet, training programme and supplement your body correctly. If you can’t make a well balanced eating plan and supplementation plan, find a qualified professional to do it for you. There are many online transformation coaches out there. Starvation is never the key, all you’re doing is slowing down your metabolism which will result in a huge reversal when you come off your starvation diet, because it isn’t a realistic maintainable way of eating and living.
Be strong, believe in yourself and you can beat it all.